“

Aghhhh.” I screamed. The pain in my body was so excruciating I didn’t know what to do. I just wanted it SO bad. I NEEDED it bad.

“Please just give it to me.” I begged. I screamed and screamed.

“Milo please help me please.” I cried out. I felt the fire in my veins. I just scratched my arm until it started bleeding. The doctor and the nurse came in the room. The doctor held me down as she strapped my arms down.

“No please, Milooooo.” I screamed. The doctor pulled out a needle out his pocket and let some drip.

“This gonna calm you.” He stuck it in my arm, in an instant I felt the fire slow down to a stop and my body went numb. My limbs laid there so limply.

“what happened?” I heard his voice. I slowly turned my head and looked at him with the urge to cry out but I didn’t.

“Milo.” I slurred.

“Baby.” he came to the side of my bed and caressed my cheek. I kind of smiled.

“What you give her.” he asked.

“something to calm her, she was scratching through her skin.” he lifted my arm and I saw the pain in his eyes.

“Oh baby.” he continued to caress my cheek.

“I’m sorry.”

‘Its going to be okay. Get some rest.”

“I love you.” I smiled.

“I love you too sweetheart.” And I felt his kiss on my forehead. I felt my self drift into the sleep.

MILO: 6 weeks later

That’s day was the worst I had ever seen her. It killed my knowing I couldn’t help her physically. She cried for me and I couldn’t do anything. She was so out of it. Every night her screams and cries for me would keep me awake. At one pint I just slept with her in her room, I couldn’t take it anymore. She stayed calm the whole night. I watched as she wrote in her journal by the fountain. She looked way beautiful. Her hair was in a messy bun, with her cute white shorts, and cropped BTW shirt. SEXY DAMN!! I didn’t realize she noticed me until she smiled and waved me over. She closed her notebook as I walked over to her and sat down. She laid her head on my shoulder and sighed.

“Well how it go?” I asked.

“She think its time for me to get out there.”

“That’s good right?”

“No I’m not ready, I might relapse.” I grabbed hold of her hand and intertwined our fingers.

“Baby you got this, you got me you know that right.”

“Yes. I’m just scared.”

“Don’t be, Ima be here every step of the way When we get you home, everything will be just fine.” I turned her face to mine and she kind of smiled. I kissed her so passionately. She finally smiled and kissed me back. She always gave me butterflies.

“Aww look at my love birds.” Rayne shot her head up.

“Nikki!!” she yelled excitedly.

“Hey girl.”

“How when?” she stuttered tears welling up in her eyes.

“You boo over here told me where yall was.” She looked down at me and had the huge grin on her face. She pecked my lips.

‘Thanks bae.”

‘You’re welcome. Ima let you catch up.” I stood to leave. I pecked her one more time and Nikki cooed at us.

“See ya later and nice seeing you Nikki.’

‘Nice seeing you too Milo.” I walked back in the building checking my watch. I had ten more minutes before my next patient. I decided to have a snack. As I walked into the kitchen. My phone began ringing again. I looked at the caller I.D and once again Stacy was calling. How was she not getting the picture. I ignored her calls, text, and voicemails. Which she left every time she called saying “I miss you” “I need you” “Need to talk” “Its important”. I just ignored it and moved on not thinking about her again. I huffed and decided to answer.

-Yes-

-Finally answered-

-Yeah what you want-

-Milo I miss you when you coming home back to me-

-I’m coming to my home soon but you never-

-what-

-Stacy look its over I’m sorry but I love someone else-

-who? That crack head-

-her name is Rayne for the millionth time Rayne-

-I don’t give a fuck, you known her what a couple months-

-The hearts want what the hearts want Stacy. I’m sorry but you need be up our my crib -when I get home-

-Milo please we need to talk-

-Bye Stacy-

-Wait Milo I’m- I hung up in her face. All I know is she better be out my house when

Rayne and I got home. That’s sounded so great Rayne and I home.

“Dr. Carter?”

“Yes.” I snapped out of my thoughts setting down my water.

“Your patient is waiting.”

“Oh thank you.” I smiled and walked out the room and took my next patient.

Rayne:

“I’m so happy for you Rayne, you look good and happy. I’m proud of you.”

‘Thank you so much Nikki. I couldn’t have doe it without you or Milo. I would probably be back on the streets right now.”

“So how’s everything going with you two?”

“Just too perfect.” I smiled widely.

“I knew yall be perfect for each other.” she smiled too.

“I’m scared Nikki.”

“Of what?”

“That’s once we leave everything will fall apart. This is our comfort zone, but once we enter the real world we will not be able to handle.”

“Do you mean you will not be able to handle it?’

‘Yeah.’ I said playing with my fingers.

‘Everything is going to be okay and I pretty sure he has reassured you of that a million times, BUT that’s a big but, if things don’t turn out good you can always come to me for anything and I’ll be there.”

“Thanks Nikki.”

“You welcome, you know you are my sis for life.” she smiled.

“Yes my sis forever and ever.” I kissed her on the cheek.

“C’mon lets go eat, I’m starving.” she patted my leg and rose from the bench