MY SAVER

Omg Chris and Rhi r at the Nicks game together!!!! Awwww they look sooo cute!!!!!

Tue, 25 Dec 2012 17:00:25 -0500

Chrianna: My Movement and My Campaign (Please Read and Please Post)

Tue, 27 Nov 2012 21:41:45 -0500

Chrianna: My Movement and My Campaign (Please Read and Please Post):

I am a huge Chris Brown fan more so than a fan of Rihanna’s. I am tired of all the bullying and hatred that Chris gets because of something he did @ 19. This is a man who was a KID when he made a very big mistake. In which he pays for still. Rihanna forgives but others who do not know him/her or…

I was walking around in a Target store, when I saw a cashier hand this little boy some money back. The boy couldn’t have been more than 5 or 6 years old. The cashier said, “I’m sorry, but you don’t have enough money to buy this doll.” Then the little boy turned to the old woman next to him: ”Granny, are you sure I don’t have enough money?” The old lady replied: ”You know that you don’t have enough money to buy this doll, my dear.” Then she asked him to stay there for just 5 minutes while she went to look a round. She left quickly. The little boy was still holding the doll in his hand. Finally, I walked toward him and I asked him who he wished to give this doll to. “It’s the doll that my sister loved most and wanted so much for Christmas. She was sure that Santa Claus would bring it to her.” I replied to him that maybe Santa Claus would bring it to her afterall, and not to worry. But he replied to me sadly. “No, Santa Claus can’t bring it to her where she is now. I have to give the doll to my mommy so that she can give it to my sister when she goes there.” His eyes were so sad while saying this. “My sister has gone to be with God. Daddy says that Mommy is going to see God very soon too, so I thought that she could take the doll with her to give it to my sister.” My heart nearly stopped. The little boy looked up at me and said: “I told daddy to tell mommy not to go yet. I need her to wait until I come back from the mall.” Then he showed me a very nice photo of him where he was laughing. He then told me “I want mommy to take my picture with her so she won’t forget me. I love my mommy and I wish she doesn’t have to leave me, but daddy says that she has to go to be with my little sister.” Then he looked again at the doll with sad eyes, very quietly. I quickly reached for my wallet and said to the boy. “Suppose we check again, just in case you do have enough money for the doll?” “OK,” he said, “I hope I do have enough.” I added some of my money to his without him seeing and we started to count it. There was enough for the doll and even some spare money. The little boy said: “Thank you God for giving me enough money!” Then he looked at me and added, “I asked last night before I went to sleep for God to make sure I had enough money to buy this doll, so that mommy could give it to my sister. He heard me!” “I also wanted to have enough money to buy a white rose for my mommy, but I didn’t dare to ask God for too much. But He gave me enough to buy the doll and a white rose.” “My mommy loves white roses.” A few minutes later, the old lady returned and I left with my basket. I finished my shopping in a totally different state from when I started. I couldn’t get the little boy out of my mind. Then I remembered a local newspaper article two days ago, which mentioned a drunk man in a truck, who hit a car occupied by a young woman and a little girl. The little girl died right away, and the mother was left in a critical state. The family had to decide whether to pull the plug on the life-sustaining machine, because the young woman would not be able to recover from the coma. Was this the family of the little boy? Two days after this encounter with the little boy, I read in the newspaper that the young woman had passed away. I couldn’t stop myself as I bought a bunch of white roses and I went to the funeral home where the body of the young woman was exposed for people to see and make last wishes before her burial. She was there, in her coffin, holding a beautiful white rose in her hand with the photo of the little boy and the doll placed over her chest. I left the place, teary-eyed, feeling that my life had been changed forever.. The love that the little boy had for his mother and his sister is still, to this day, hard to imagine. And in a fraction of a second, a drunk driver had taken all this away from him. Now you have 2 choices: 1) Reblog this message. 2) Ignore it as if it never touched your heart

Mon, 26 Nov 2012 13:25:00 -0500

Reblog if you have a friendship of more than 5 years.

Tue, 13 Nov 2012 23:54:56 -0500

13 years n counting

ellaluna: sarahdwaynecarter: “If Mitt Romney wins the election, Canada invites all Americans to a...

Tue, 06 Nov 2012 22:09:43 -0500

ellaluna:

sarahdwaynecarter:

“If Mitt Romney wins the election, Canada invites all Americans to a 4 year sleepover.”

thank you guys. I will bring the snacks.

ILL BRING DRINKS AND MY J.B BELIEVE CD LOL

Republican lost 2 seats?

Tue, 06 Nov 2012 22:08:33 -0500

savemefromufanfic:

LETS GOOO DONT LET THEM STAY IN THE SENATE!!

YESS!! IM SICK OF THIS REPUBLICANS TRYNA RUN EVERY GOT DAMN THING!!!

I KNW I LIVE IN TEXAS BUT FUCK YOU TEXAS!!!! BUT WE ALL KNOW SHIT WONT CHANGE IN THE DAMN SOUTH!!!

Tue, 06 Nov 2012 22:07:11 -0500

IF ROMNEY THATS A BIG MOTHERFCKN IF…I MOVING EITHER BACK TO AFRICA, ENGLAND, OR CANADA W/MY J.B STANS LOL

So Chapter 10 and 11 is up!! Enjoy and if you dont mind tell ppl about this fanfic , help me spread the word <3

Sat, 28 Apr 2012 21:46:55 -0400

Chapter 11

Sat, 28 Apr 2012 21:45:21 -0400

Last night was not how I planned our first night home. I woke up to the sun shinning into my face.

“Baby close the curtains.” I rolled over to her side.

“Baby?” I felt around but there was nothing. I opened my eyes to see the bed empty. I rose up from the bed, I figured she was in the kitchen. I went into the bathroom and did my hygiene thing and was completely dress. I finally went down stairs.

“Rayne baby.” I called out. There was no answer. I continued to look around in the kitchen, but she was not there. I went into the guess bedroom and bathroom, she was not there. I started to panic, I ran back into the kitchen ready to grab the phone but I saw a note on the fridge.

Dear Milo

Good morning bae, I know this is not what you expected probably. But I been thinking all night about what you said and what I been feeling and the two don’t match. I may be a crack head LOL but I have my morals. You may not think what I think but this is how I feel. That’s your baby and she s your baby momma, she is going to be in your life for 18 years plus, they are your family and I cant get in between that. I just cant do it, I know how it feels to have my father taken by another woman. I’m not saying I would have kept you from him or her, but it would of felt like it for me and I know for your child. Eventually I know our love will die and your love for Stacy will grow once I’m gone and out of your mind. Now you can focus on your family. I’m sorry I left like this but I wouldn’t handle it if we was face to face. Eventually I call to let you know everything is alright. I will truly miss you and thanks for EVERYTHING. I will always love you.

Love Rayne

I felt tears come down my eyes as I stared at her beautiful handwriting on this piece of paper. I crumbled up the paper and threw it on the floor. I slid against the cabinets and cried. I couldn’t loose her like that I had to fight for her. I got up and grabbed phone and dialed her number. It went straight t the service network. She cut it off. She was really trying to get away from me. I felt resentment towards Stacy build up in my veins. It was all her fault. Nobody’s perfect trust me I know, I have a past she doesn’t know about, that nobody knows about. If she knew the real me, if Stacy knew the real me, she wouldn’t be so interested. If anyone knew the real me I would have NOTHING. I shook the thoughts out of my head. “I’m Dr. Milo Carter I can get through anything.” I said to myself. I grabbed my keys and headed to the one place I knew she would be.

NIKKI!!

RAYNE:

Everything that had kept me up all night thinking and I knew what I had to do, I knew from the moment she spoke those words. I’m Pregnant. I decide to write Milo a note before I left, that was the least I could do. I felt the tears welding up in my eyes as wrote the words coming straight from my heart. I took the bus to Nikki, hoping he would just accept the letter and move on, but I know my baby, he will NOT let this go. I arrived at Nikki house a little after eight before she heads to the hospital..

“Omg Rayne what are you doing here.” I must have looked a messed. I cried on the bus the whole way over here. She opened her arms towards me and I walked in with my bags.

“Go get cleaned up while I make coffee.” She pointed me to the bathroom. I looked my self in the mirror and I didn’t like what I saw. I scratched my arm and neck, trying not to think about the taste in my mouth. The stress was getting to me. I turned on the hot shower and stepped in letting everything run over my body. I cried even more, I didn’t know how much I really loved him until I had to let him go for his family. I felt like I was the mistress of a married man. Finally I just lathered my self in my body wash and washed my hair hoping to get the thoughts away. I got out, put on my tank, and some sweats while pulling my hair back into a neat bun. I applied a little foundation under my eyes to cover up the bags I had. Once a smile that never could leave my face no longer resides like it never even existed. I felt a turn in my stomach and now I was on the floor puking my brains out in the toilet. The stress was really getting to me.

“Rayne hun are you alright?” knocked Nikki.

“Yeah I be out in a minute.” I brushed my teeth and washed it out with Listerine. I wiped the sweat from my forehead an walked out trying to recover. She was in the kitchen waiting on me and I took a seat at the bar.

“You don’t look good ma.”

“I am fine, its just I don’t even know anymore.”

“Tell me what happened.” she touched my hand softly.

“She’s pregnant.”

“WHO pregnant?” she put her cup down on the bar hard. She frightened me a little. She had an angry look on her face. I just couldn’t hold it in anymore, so I cried.

“This nigga cheated who the fuck is this bitch.” yelled angrily in her ghetto accent. The NO was really coming out of her now.

“Stacy.”

“WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK!!” I heard rummaging through her drawers and then I heard keys dangling. I looked up and she had a knife in her head along with her keys; she was heading straight for the door.

“Nikki no wait.” I stood in front of her. She huffed.

“Let me explain first please.” I grabbed the knife first and then her keys and put them back on the counter. We both sat down on the couch and I began from the beginning.

“Well we got back from the center and we arrived at his house and there was a car in the driveway, but didn’t think nothing of it, I thought it was his.” I continued telling her what went down and she gasp in shock.

“Really, she pulled a slick one.”

“Yea she got him, she win.”

“No, don’t let that effect yall Rayne.”

‘C’mon you sound like him.” she was about to say something when there was a loud knock at the door. She got up and went to her door and looked through the peep hole.

“Milo?”

“Yes it me open up, I need to talk to you.”

“Don’t tell him I’m here, act like you know nothing.” I said as I dashed to the back not too far where I couldn’t hear. I heard the door open and close. His beautiful voice followed through the apartment.

“Have you seen her?”

“What?” played Nikki.

“Have you seen Rayne.”

“No why? She suppose to be with you.”

“No, she left.”

“WTF Milo what happened?” she was good.

“I messed up Nikki, I should never ever start messing with Stacy again.”

‘What she do?”

“She s pregnant?”

“Wow Milo really Stacy, could’ve done better like Rayne.”

“I know it was before her though.”

“I don’t know what to say to you anymore.”

“Nikki help me find her.”

“Help find her? She probably long gone now with yo stupid unprotected ass! No telling how she feeling, probably broken into a million pieces.”

“I’m sorry.”

“You should be telling her that.”

“If she comes here, call me right away.”

“Whatever Milo.”

“Please.”

“Fine.” I heard the door open and shut again. At that moment I broke down and cried. Nikki came and comforted me on the wall. I felt the urge again. I ran to the bathroom and just let it all out. Sweat was dripping from my body wetting my shirt.

“Ma you don’t look good, you need a doctor now.”

“Not Milo hospital.” She just nodded and help me to the car.

I HOPE I’m going to be alright!!

STACY:

I just knew this work, it was the perfect plan. She had nothing on me at all. I had everything he wanted in woman plus this new addition to out family. She had no chance.

“Thank you Dr. Jefferson.”

“You’re wlecom, condradualtions. I f you know any other youg women or couple looking for a fertility clinic, tell them about us.’

“Of course, thank you again.”

“You are very welcome.” I grabbed my purse and the pictures and headed out the clinic when the phone rung.

-hello-

-umm hey-

-oh hey Milo-

-what are you doing?-

-just leaving the doctor-

-for the baby-

-yeah of course-

-How’s everything-

-perfect, healthy-

-good- it was silent for awhile.

-I know you didn’t call just for that, whats up- I asked smiling

-I need you to come by, its important-

-You sure, I mean you know Rayne-

-Don’t worry about that, she no longer in the picture- he mumbled the last part, but zI heard perfectly clearly.

-okay I’m on my way-

-okay be careful-

-don’t worry I’m good- I said smiling widely. We hung up the phone and I jumped around like I just won the lottery. I got in my car and just sat there. It felt so good. I win!! I pulled out the parking lot and headed to his house. All I have to say now is GOT HIM!!!

Chapter 10

Sat, 28 Apr 2012 21:44:03 -0400

“You ready?”

“No.” Rayne replied.

“C’mon bae its going to be okay.” I made her look at me. I smiled and pecked her lips. She smiled at me. She finished signing the papers and we left the rehab center. The drive back home was silent. She just stared out the window the whole time. I guess she was really scared. I grabbed hold of her hand and squeezed it lightly just to let her know I was there. She turned to look at me and smiled back.

“I’m okay.” she said caressing my cheeks. I just nodded and continued to drive. Once we got into my driver her car was still there.

“Shit.” I mumbled.

“Milo whats wrong?” I guess she over heard me.

“Nothing babe.” We both out the car and I went open the door. I decided to not call out her name. As I walked I looked around but she wasn’t there.

“I’m hungry.” I kind of jumped, I totally forgot Rayne was right behind me.

“Milo you sure you okay?”

“Yes honey. How about you go take a bath and I’ll make you something.”

“Oh thanks, I’m in need of relaxation. She picked up her bad and kissed me before heading up stairs. Once she was out of my sight I hurried and looked around for Stacy but she seemed not to be here until the scream of Rayne.

“What the fuck are you doing here?”

“What the fuck are YOU doing here?” I heard Rayne said. I hurriedly went upstairs to see Stacy in my t-shirt, in MY bed.

“Stacy!”

‘Milo what is she doing here?” pointed Stacy.

“What I’m doing here, this is my boyfriend.”

“Boyfriend please, you’re just another charity case.”

“Bitch!!” Rayne lunged for Stacy but I grabbed her.

“Stacy put your clothes on and come down stairs. Lets go Rayne.” I said into her ear. She yanked from my arms and went down stairs. I followed behind. I didn’t lie, I did tell her to leave.

“Listen Rayne.”

“No I don’t want to here it, you still with her Milo?”

“No I been broke it off. I told her to leave.”

“Then what is she still doing here?” she yelled.

“I don’t know, but we about to find out.” Finally Stacy was coming down stairs. She looked a little heavier than usual. She came around still glaring at Rayne and she was glaring back.

“Stacy I thought I told you to leave.”

“I know but I know you care about me Milo, she just another charity case. I’m a real woman.” I put my hand on Rayne back and rubbed it, trying to keep her calm.

“Stacy I ove Rayne, she is all the woman I need.” I said looking in to Rayne eyes. She smiled and pecked my lips and we heard Stacy scuff.

“Oh please when she go back running to them drugs you going to be at my doorstep crying like a bitch.”

“That’s enough, you don’t talk about Milo you little skank bitch.” interjected Rayne.

“You need to shut your crack head ass up, this is between Milo and I.”I could feel the anger coming off Rayne.

“You need to leave Stacy along with your belongings.”

“But we need to talk.”

“There’s nothing to talk about.” I slightly yelled.

“Yes it is.”

‘Then what?” I yelled this time. She got quiet and started playing with her fingers.

“Say it bitch.” said Rayne irritated.

“I’m pregnant. That’s why I was calling so much.” she said looking at me. I couldn’t believe this.

“Wha-what?”

“I’m 15 weeks.” She raise her shirt and I saw the bump. I heard Rayne gasp and I felt my mouth hit the ground.

RAYNE:

I couldn’t believe what I was hearing or seeing. I felt the tears was welding up in my eyes. She smiled and rubbed her belly. I felt like I wanted to run and cry. I wanted to be the wife and the mother of his kids. I wanted it all and now its shattered by her. I looked at Milo and he looked even more shock than afraid. I just couldn’t handle it, I went upstairs, closed the door, and locked it. I threw myself on the bed and cried between the pillows. I realized she just got up out this bed and jumped up. This room was where they made love, this bed was where the created that baby. I cried even more. I sat on the floor and cried. The craving came back and it hit harder than ever. I didn’t realize how ling I was sitting there starring at the wall until I heard a knock at the door.\

“Rayne.’ I stayed quiet.

“Rayne babe, open up.”

“No go away.”

‘Baby please, just to talk.” I unlocked the door and sat back on the wall. He opened the door and came in looking for me.

“Rayne.”

“I’m down here.” he quickly turned around at the sound of my voice. He had a look of sorry written across his face. He sat in the edge if the bed, but I refuse to look at him, I just continued to stare straight ahead at the wall.

“Baby talk to me please.”

“Whats there to talk about “daddy.”

‘Idk if that kid is mine.”

“Please I’m sure you fucked her without a condom a couple times.” he stayed quiet. I just laughed.

“What?”

“Just when I thought everything was going to be okay, once again life hates me.” IU started crying all over again. He slid in front of me.

“Everything is going to be fine. W estill gogint ot be together no matter what.” I stayed quiet.

“We are going to be together no matter whjat right?”

“Idk Milo, I really don’t.”

‘What you mean you don’t know.”

“This is a family now Milo. No matter what you and her have a family. I cant break that up.”

“You’re not breaking us up.”

“yes I am, she is your childs mother, that show it suppose to be. A mother , a father, and its children. Not the father and his girlfriend and the baby momma.” I said letting the tears fall.

“I love you, not her. I want us, you are my family.”

“Milo.” I sighed.

“No, listen that baby might not be mine, I want you, I want you to be my wife, I want you to be the mother of my kids. I just want you , don’t you get that?”

“Yes but whether you like it or not there s baby involved.”

“Stop thinking about that damn baby.”

“I CANT!!” I yelled standing up.

He wiped his hands over his face. “I got to go.” I said walking away. He grabbed my wrist.

“Baby please don’t go, just stay and think about it please. Just stay.” I saw the begging in his eyes. I already made up my mind or did I? I was so confused. I always refused to break up a family. I knew how it felt and I NEVER ever wan to do that too a child. He gotten into bed and patted the spit next to him. I slid on the bed and he wrapped his arm around me pulling me closer. I just cuddled up to him more. I couldn’t leave this, I couldn’t leave him. But that baby was on my mind. What will haooen once she or he gets here, will his feelings for Stacy change. I was so confused I’m the head. He rubbed his finger down my back relaxing me in an instant.

“I love you.’ his whispered those words in my ear. I smiled, my body got all giddy.

“I love you too.” I heard myself say. At that moment when those words was spoken I knew what my choice was,

SOOOO CHAPTER 8 & 9 ARE HOPE YOU ENJOY ^_^

Mon, 23 Apr 2012 22:10:43 -0400

CHAPTER 9

Mon, 23 Apr 2012 22:10:04 -0400

“

Aghhhh.” I screamed. The pain in my body was so excruciating I didn’t know what to do. I just wanted it SO bad. I NEEDED it bad.

“Please just give it to me.” I begged. I screamed and screamed.

“Milo please help me please.” I cried out. I felt the fire in my veins. I just scratched my arm until it started bleeding. The doctor and the nurse came in the room. The doctor held me down as she strapped my arms down.

“No please, Milooooo.” I screamed. The doctor pulled out a needle out his pocket and let some drip.

“This gonna calm you.” He stuck it in my arm, in an instant I felt the fire slow down to a stop and my body went numb. My limbs laid there so limply.

“what happened?” I heard his voice. I slowly turned my head and looked at him with the urge to cry out but I didn’t.

“Milo.” I slurred.

“Baby.” he came to the side of my bed and caressed my cheek. I kind of smiled.

“What you give her.” he asked.

“something to calm her, she was scratching through her skin.” he lifted my arm and I saw the pain in his eyes.

“Oh baby.” he continued to caress my cheek.

“I’m sorry.”

‘Its going to be okay. Get some rest.”

“I love you.” I smiled.

“I love you too sweetheart.” And I felt his kiss on my forehead. I felt my self drift into the sleep.

MILO: 6 weeks later

That’s day was the worst I had ever seen her. It killed my knowing I couldn’t help her physically. She cried for me and I couldn’t do anything. She was so out of it. Every night her screams and cries for me would keep me awake. At one pint I just slept with her in her room, I couldn’t take it anymore. She stayed calm the whole night. I watched as she wrote in her journal by the fountain. She looked way beautiful. Her hair was in a messy bun, with her cute white shorts, and cropped BTW shirt. SEXY DAMN!! I didn’t realize she noticed me until she smiled and waved me over. She closed her notebook as I walked over to her and sat down. She laid her head on my shoulder and sighed.

“Well how it go?” I asked.

“She think its time for me to get out there.”

“That’s good right?”

“No I’m not ready, I might relapse.” I grabbed hold of her hand and intertwined our fingers.

“Baby you got this, you got me you know that right.”

“Yes. I’m just scared.”

“Don’t be, Ima be here every step of the way When we get you home, everything will be just fine.” I turned her face to mine and she kind of smiled. I kissed her so passionately. She finally smiled and kissed me back. She always gave me butterflies.

“Aww look at my love birds.” Rayne shot her head up.

“Nikki!!” she yelled excitedly.

“Hey girl.”

“How when?” she stuttered tears welling up in her eyes.

“You boo over here told me where yall was.” She looked down at me and had the huge grin on her face. She pecked my lips.

‘Thanks bae.”

‘You’re welcome. Ima let you catch up.” I stood to leave. I pecked her one more time and Nikki cooed at us.

“See ya later and nice seeing you Nikki.’

‘Nice seeing you too Milo.” I walked back in the building checking my watch. I had ten more minutes before my next patient. I decided to have a snack. As I walked into the kitchen. My phone began ringing again. I looked at the caller I.D and once again Stacy was calling. How was she not getting the picture. I ignored her calls, text, and voicemails. Which she left every time she called saying “I miss you” “I need you” “Need to talk” “Its important”. I just ignored it and moved on not thinking about her again. I huffed and decided to answer.

-Yes-

-Finally answered-

-Yeah what you want-

-Milo I miss you when you coming home back to me-

-I’m coming to my home soon but you never-

-what-

-Stacy look its over I’m sorry but I love someone else-

-who? That crack head-

-her name is Rayne for the millionth time Rayne-

-I don’t give a fuck, you known her what a couple months-

-The hearts want what the hearts want Stacy. I’m sorry but you need be up our my crib -when I get home-

-Milo please we need to talk-

-Bye Stacy-

-Wait Milo I’m- I hung up in her face. All I know is she better be out my house when

Rayne and I got home. That’s sounded so great Rayne and I home.

“Dr. Carter?”

“Yes.” I snapped out of my thoughts setting down my water.

“Your patient is waiting.”

“Oh thank you.” I smiled and walked out the room and took my next patient.

Rayne:

“I’m so happy for you Rayne, you look good and happy. I’m proud of you.”

‘Thank you so much Nikki. I couldn’t have doe it without you or Milo. I would probably be back on the streets right now.”

“So how’s everything going with you two?”

“Just too perfect.” I smiled widely.

“I knew yall be perfect for each other.” she smiled too.

“I’m scared Nikki.”

“Of what?”

“That’s once we leave everything will fall apart. This is our comfort zone, but once we enter the real world we will not be able to handle.”

“Do you mean you will not be able to handle it?’

‘Yeah.’ I said playing with my fingers.

‘Everything is going to be okay and I pretty sure he has reassured you of that a million times, BUT that’s a big but, if things don’t turn out good you can always come to me for anything and I’ll be there.”

“Thanks Nikki.”

“You welcome, you know you are my sis for life.” she smiled.

“Yes my sis forever and ever.” I kissed her on the cheek.

“C’mon lets go eat, I’m starving.” she patted my leg and rose from the bench

CHAPTER 8

Mon, 23 Apr 2012 22:09:12 -0400

“Damn Milo get off me, you’re heavy.”

“Oh c’mon I’m not that heavy.” he laughed leaning more into me.

“Nikki please get him off me.”

“Hey that’s all you boo.” The past couple weeks Milo and Nikki has become my family. The family I never had after the incident. I was smiling a lot more. I was ready to go, six weeks in here was enough and this cast is not fun, at least I get the boot today.

“Ray?” Milo looked at me worried. I sighed he always worry so much even when I’m in the hospital.

“Yeah?”

“You okay.” he asked stroking my cheek.

“Yeah just thinking.” I didn’t want to tell him I was fending again, that morphine was helping my craving but now that I’m off I can nearly taste it in my mouth and my nose burn. I was itching just like the true crack head I am. This is just fantasy and crack is my reality. I looked at Milo and I could feel like he was reading my mind.

“Its going to be okay, once you out we going to get help.”

“That’s right so don’t worry.” I just looked down at me legs, I couldn’t look them in the eye, I know I’m going to disappoint them. I always do. Then once again I’m going to be alone. I felt his finger under my chin and lift my head to meet his gaze.

“Its WILL be okay, we is here for you so don’t you worry about a thing, ya hear?” he wiped the tears that was falling. He kissed the last one that left my eye. I couldn’t help but smile.

“Aww.” Nikki cooed.

“Girl please.”

“Milo I’m swoop a man like you. Aye matter of fact Dr. Sanders upstairs is single right or divorced?”

We laughed. She looked at us like she was not playing.

“I’m so serious. That’s one sexy mofo.” We all laughed with her.

“Where’s her chart?” Nikki passed it to him and when he looked over it, he smiled and looked up at me.

“You can go home, there no need for you to stay. Vitals great, bones healing, just put the boot on and you squared away.”

“That’s great.”

“Yeah Ima go talk to Dr. May right now.” Milo got up from his seat and kissed me.

“Be right back.” He left out the room and my heart just fluttered.

“Yall are just too cute.”

“He is so sweet and caring.”

“He really loves I can see it.”

“I guess.”

“Girl you know yall some love birds, admit it, you love him too.” I just smiled.

“I’m guessing that’s a yes by the huge Kool-Aid smile on your face.” she laughed.

“Shut up and.”

“And I want to be the maid of honor at the wedding too.”

“Wow you making a huge jump.” I put my head down.

‘Whats the matter Rayne?”

“Once he realized that my drug habit isn’t a habit it’s a HUGE problem, he gonna leave.”

“Omg Rayne haven’t he proved he aint going anywhere, look he’s been here for almost 2 years with you, going through hell…and yes he told me everything. This man loves you which I thought was quick but I guess your heart knows what it wants when it wants it.” she gave me a reassuring smile. I was about to say something when Milo came back in with my doctor.

“I heard you ready to get up out of here.”

“Yes very much so.”

“Okay I can get the discharge paper drawn up and you’ll be free to go.”

“Yaaay.” I cheered. She left with Nikki following behind.

“I’m so ready to get you home.”

“Home?”

“Yes home, with me. Rayne I’m never letting you out of my sight or life again.” he said coming over to me and wrapping me up.

“I don’t think that’s a good idea.” He pulled back looking me in my eyes.

“What you mean?’ I could see the panic in his eyes.

“I thinks its best I go to rehab.” I finally admitted.

“Is that what you really want?”

“Yea I think its best.” he just nodded and smiled.

“I’m proud of you.”

“For?”

‘Making your decision.”

“Well I’m proud of me too. I just don’t want to disappoint you anymore.”

“You can never disappoint me.” he smiled and his lips connected with mine.

“I love this.”

‘”Really there more where that came from.” He got in between my legs and started kissing me so passionate.

“Oh god you two.” we looked over to see Nikki with papers.

“Whaaat?” I said innocently.

“Just sign these and you freaks can go home.” she laughed. I quickly signed the papers and I was out of this place.

MILO:

“Are you ready for this?”

“More ready than I’ll ever be.”

“Lets go.” We got out the car and I helped her up to the rehab center. The building was nice and cozy on the inside.

“Welcome to LA Becton Rehab Facility.”

“Yes Dr. Carter checking in with Rayne Smith.” She went typing away.

“Oh yes here we are. Welcome and I’ll show you to your room Dr and Ms. Smith, Dr. Drew will be with you in a minute.” I looked at Rayne and she looked terrified and she was sweaty. I could see the pain in her eyes and I was determined to take that away.

“We got this.” I leaned into her ear.

“I know.” she kind of smiled. I kissed her neck to relax her.

“Meet in the back at the fountain when you finish.”

‘Okay.”

“Rayne?”

“Yeah?” she finally looked at me.

The words flowed perfectly out my mouth. “I love you.” I smiled.

Her eyes glistened and she smiled too. “I love you too.”

I pecked her lips and we went our separate way.

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Mon, 23 Apr 2012 22:06:59 -0400

RAYNESHA SMITH (RAYNE)

NIKKI TAYLOR

STACY CARR

MARTIN JOHNSON (BONES)

DR. MILO CARTER

Mon, 23 Apr 2012 22:02:58 -0400

DR. MILO CARTER

what do the characters look like ?

Mon, 23 Apr 2012 18:51:33 -0400

Ima put the charactera up tonight

WELL JUST TO LET WHO EVER IS READING I PUT UP CHAPTER 6 & 7 :)

Fri, 20 Apr 2012 23:57:57 -0400

CHAPTER 7

Fri, 20 Apr 2012 23:57:11 -0400

I stretched across the couch, I didn’t realize how long I slept. I looked over at her and she looked so peacefully, just sleeping, I thought. She WILL wake up. I stood from the couch and walked over to her and kissed her forehead ,like my usual morning routine.

“Good morning beautiful, I‘ll be back.” I walked out the room and I saw Nikki at the desk.

“Good morning Dr. Carter.”

“Good morning.” She seemed extremely happy this morning. She passed me into Rayne room. I went to my office and cleaned up. I looked at myself in the mirror and I looked horrible. I had bags under my eyes, I was drained. As soon as Rayne wake up I know my worries would go away. *Ring-Ring*

-Hello- I answered without looking at the caller I.D

-Milo- I rolled my eyes.

-Yes Stacy-

-When are you coming home-

-I told you when she wakes-

-Ughh fuck it- she hung up. I slowly moved the phone from ear and threw it at the wall. She wasn’t understanding and it was pissing me off. Why couldn’t she understand it, I had to realize my feeling for Rayne was not going away. Stacy can go to the pothole for all I care. I didn’t know how to control my emotions when it came to Rayne, it was just so much better with her. I knew I couldn’t try anything with her in this state, I don’t want her to think I will take advantage of her. I blew a frustrating sigh. I threw some cold water on my face and wiped it off with a towel. I took one last look in the mirror before leaving my office. I walked back into Rayne room and Nikki was still there with a smile on her face, she looked up at me and tried to hide her smile. What was she so happy for?

“How is she?” I asked.

“The same.” I just sighed. She patted my back as she walked out the room, she giggled a little. I had no clue whats going on? I took my usual seat by the bed and held onto her hand.

“So what we going to talk about today?” It didn’t feel weird anymore when she didn’t answer back.

“Well Stacy called again, pissed me off, she just don’t understand. I miss you, your smile. I’m ready for you to wake up. C’mon Rayne please wake up please, so we can go back to the house, chill, watch movies, we can get you help this time, we can do this, you just got to wake up.” I laid my head on here hand. I felt movement.

“Damn a nigga cant get no sleep up in this peace. And you call this a hospital.” I shot up, she was sitting up smiling.

“WTF!!”

“Hi Milo.” she smiled.

RAYNE:

Oh the look on his face was priceless. I press the button for Nikki to come back in and she had this biggest smile on her face.

“I think he’s in shock.” we laughed.

“Dr. Carter?”

“You knew?” she just nodded with a grin, See Nikki helped me with this. I wanted to scare the dog shit out of him. So we kept me being awake a secret and I told her.

“So when he wake, do the usual, don’t change or he’ll suspect something.”

“Oh this going to be good.” she laughed.

“I know, get him back for all those times.” I smiled.

“Alright he’s moving let me get out of here.”

“Okay, lets do this.” I laughed and laid back down.

“How could you?”

“It was just a joke Milo, lighten up.” she laughed. She came over and dapped me up.

“My nigga.” we laughed. He didn’t seem to amuse.

“I’ll leave you two to it.” She just shook at Milo and walked out.

I smiled. “Are you really mad?”

He clenched his jaw and looked out the window. “Yes.”

“Aww come here , I’m sowy.” I laughed.

“Its not funny.” he hesitantly moved to me and sat next to me.

“Relax, it was a joke.”

“I truly was worried Rayne.”

“I know.”

“How long you been awake?”

“Last night.”

“You heard what I said?”

“Yes.” I smiled. He finally turned to look me in my eyes. He looked so worried. I smooth the lines on his forehead. He connected his forehead to mine and blew a sign of relief.

“Relax, I’m fine okay.” He just nodded but we stayed that way.

“Is it bad if I want to kiss you.”

A smile crept on my lips. “No its perfectly good.” Our lips was about to connect for the first time when we heard someone enter. We looked at the door and it was Nikki with most widest grin.

“I didn’t meant to interrupt or anything.” she said smiling like a kid at a candy store. I guess she was really rooting for us.

“Its okay.” he said smiling at her.

“Umm Dr. May will be in minute to talk to yall.”

“Okay thanks.” I replied.

“Yoooou welcome. Be good guys.” she laughed out as she turned around. That girl was crazy. He looked down at me with seductive eyes.

“Where was we?” he bent down.

“This.” I said coming the rest of the way kissing him for the first time and it was perfect. Our tongues danced around with each like the belong together. It was deep and passionate. We finally pulled apart and a smile was on both of our lips.

STACY:

I couldn’t believe what I was seeing. He is MY man. How dare she try to steal him? I felt a tear rolled down my cheek. I be damned if he think he’s going to leave me for THAT. I tried being a good girlfriend but I’m about to raise the bar on this bitch. I going to give him something he always wanted. A Family! I wiped the tears from my eyes. I turned around to see that bitch Nikki smiling at me. I walked away.

“Have a nice day Ms. Stacy.” I turned and glared at her. She just waved at me, I wanted to punch her in her ghetto ass face. I walked out the hospital to the warm air hitting my skin. Just wait, we gone see who has the last laugh. I smiled to myself

Its going to be ME!

CHAPTER 6

Fri, 20 Apr 2012 23:56:18 -0400

I wish I knew where she was, I should of never made a drug addict choose. I feel so bad, I haven’t stop thinking about her all week.

“Babe are you okay?” she asked rubbing the lines on my forehead.

“Yeah I’m fine.” She tilted her head in front of me and had a worried look on her face.

“You sure?”

“Stacy I fine, see.” I smiled big for her so she could get off my back. She rose from my lap and grabbed my hand.

“C’mon I have something to relax you.” She led me upstairs to the bedroom. She laid me down on the bed and started stripping. My eyes roamed her body as every piece of clothing came off. *BEEP-BEEP* I quickly grabbed my pager off the nightstand.

“C’mon Milo.” she whined. Here she go again.

“Sorry hun that the hospital, its an emergency.”

“Its always an emergency.”

“Well I am a doctor. Let me find out and I’ll be right back in.” I got up off the bed kissed her and she smelled so sweet. I went to find my cell phone.

“Yes you page Dr. Carter.”

“Yes Dr. we have a patient here asking for you.”

“Who?”

‘Rayne Smith.”

“Rayne.. I’m on my way.” I quickly threw on my sweats and hoodie and OBEY snapback. I grabbed my pager and cell phone heading out the door.

“Milo whats going on?” called out Stacy. I kept on right out the door without a word. I dashed down the highway to the hospital leaving it with valet. I make into the hospital and all the receptions heads turn.

“Dr. Carter.” she said licking her lips.

“Yes, where is she?”

“Who?”

“Oh Dr. Carter right this way.” yelled Ms. Taylor. I followed her and she had her chart in hand. She handed to me and I began reading, I could feel heat rising in my body.

“This is my fault.” I mumbled.

“A man found her in the ditch on side of the road about 5 miles from here.”

‘Thanks Ms. Taylor.”

“Just call me Nikki.”

“Thanks Nikki.” I could see the seduction in her eyes. I never wore my lounge clothes around, I was always dressed up, but at this point I didn’t care. I put the chart under my arm, took a deep breathe, and walked into her room. The site of her was horrific, who ever did this to her did a pretty good job. She was sleeping so peacefully. I went over to the monitors and checked her vitals and her meds. They had her on a high dose of morphine. I put the chart down and pulled the chair close to her bed. I grabbed a hold of her hand, my heart was hurting for her. She is my friend, suppose to be best friend, and I let this happen to her.

“I’m sorry Rayne, I should have been there. I should of never made you choose.” I kissed the top of her hand.

“Dr. Carter?” I shot my head up and looked towards the door.

“Dr. May.”

“You know this patient.”

“Yes, she is my girlfriend.”

“Oh.” the look on her face told me she didn’t believe me.

“How long has she been sleep?”

“About a couple hours. We suspect she was out there for a couple days. The police want to speak to her once she wakes up.”

“Yes I want to know who did this.”

“Listen Milo, just by the look at her and then her test results you can imagine whats she been up to.”

“Niria please.”

“Just be careful.”

“I know what I’m doing.”

“I bet you do.” With that she walked back out the room.

RAYNE: One week later

What is going on where am I? I rolled my eyes around and it was pitch black but I could hear voices. HIS VOICE. I kept screaming his name, he actually came, he is here. I heard the door closed and felt him touch me. It felt so good.

“Hey baby girl, I’m back, sorry I had to use the bathroom.” he chuckled. I smiled. I wanted to wake up to his beautiful smile and those brown orbs but my eyes was so heavy.

“I’m sorry, I should of never made you choose. I was suppose to be your friend and I failed.” Its not your fault I screamed but it was only in my head. It was silent and I heard sniffles.

“I need you to wake up please, I cant imagine not having you in my life Ray, please come back please….I know you can hear me please.” he squeezed my hand tight. I felt a soft kiss on my forehead.

“I want to come back Milo I want too…Come on dammit open your eyes Rayne!!” I yelled at myself.

Finally my eyes opened . The bright light from the room nearly blinded me, I had to close them an reopened them to adjust the light. Finally I could move; the weight was gone. I just had to say something. I looked over at Milo and he was laid out on the couch. In his sweats and hoodie and his beanie on. He was looking to sexy right now. I couldn’t help but smile. I heard his light snores echo the room. I really didn’t want to wake him so I just page the nurse. She came in I guess expecting it to be him.

“Dr. Carter?”

“No, me.” I said softly but loud enough for her to hear. She looked shocked and was going to wake him.

“No, let him sleep, he looks exhausted.” She nodded in agreement and came over to me.

“How you feeling?”

“A little weak but I’m better now I’m awake.”

“That’s good. I would like to talk to you before I let the doctor know you are awake.” I nodded.

“You body had been going through withdraw, which I’m pretty sure in the morning you gonna feel like umm crap. You don’t need to do that stuff„ its killing you, your organs are almost completely giving out. You’re so small we had to give you feeding tube just to cope with the meds. Milo cares about you a lot and it has killed him and the guilt of letting you walk out has been eaten at him. He a loving and caring guy and all he want to do is help you. I may be jumping the gun he just might love you too.”

“We’re best friend of course we love each other.”

“C’mon Rayne you know what I mean.” she sighed.

I just sighed. I didn’t know what to say, I just looked over at him sleeping on the couch, it broke my heart knowing he felts this way.

“Just let him help you and I’m here too if you need anything, and we can all get through this together.” I let the tears fall.

“Why are you trying to help me?”

“Because my sister was just like you, unfortunately I didn’t get a chance be her saver, she died before her 18^th Birthday.” I saw tears fall from her eyes.

“Thank you.” I slightly smiled.

“No problem, get some rest the doctor should be here in the morning.” She cut the light off above me and patted my leg. She walked out the room and quietly closed the door. I looked at all the wires and stuff. I don’t want to live like this anymore. I want to do better. Not just for me, but for her sister, for Milo, for us. US?

Could there really be an us?

I smiled at the thought of me and Milo being more than a friend, but it is what it is now. I blew a kiss his way and got comfortable. I covered my body with the blanket, closed my eyes, and drifted off to sleep.

Soo I wrote more chapter but I dont know how Im doinf and if I should keep going..If you reading, could you send some feedback pleased just to see if its still worth writing..Please and Thank You- Faye

Wed, 18 Apr 2012 19:58:25 -0400